we had little buddy's first birthday party yesterday. i can't believe he's one! it went really well, and he loved digging through his cake.

we got an offer on our house! and we are expecting a second one tomorrow! holy cow!

only one baby! had our first ultrasound yesterday and everything looks great!

i'm pregnant.

and determined to make this a "glass half full" thing.

psych!

best.show.ever.

too many times

It's so easy to be negative, isn't it? It's just not fair that it's not easier to be happy. How do some people make it look so easy? It's not. J does so many wonderful things for me and it's way too easy to ignore all of those the second he does something that upsets me. Why is it easy to forget the good and dwell on the bad? It takes a lot of conscious effort to be happy, I think, and sometimes I'm just not willing to put in that effort. But it's worth it right? I don't like crying, so why do I spend so much of my time with tears streaming down my face? I have so much to be happy about, but those few bad things get the spotlight. How many times have I said this, how many times have I decided that I am going to focus on the positive and then continued to focus on the negative? Too many times.

I am grateful that I have a job (if only for the next 3 months...). I'm scared for the future; it's nice to have a sound present.
I am so grateful for my family, for loving me even when I'm snippy.
I am grateful for music.
I am grateful for people with talent, for creating beautiful things that I can enjoy.
I am grateful that chocolate-dipped pretzels are so easy to make.

Life really is good.

I'm glad I'm not a total loner. I was worried that I would be. But the other interns are nice and let me eat lunch with them and ride the bus with them.
I'm even glad that I ride the bus for 3 hours a day. That gives me 3 hours to read every day.
I'm truly grateful for black nylons so that I can get away with shaving every other day.
I'm glad that J is willing to wake up in the morning and scrape the ice off my car and kiss me goodbye and then go back to sleep.
I'm glad it's raining, even though I won't be when I have to stand in it while waiting for the bus.
I'm really glad for alarm clocks or else I would always be late.

awards and other fun stuff

i am working very hard lately to see the half-full glass instead of the half-empty.

my baby is adorable. and i can't believe that he is almost a year old already...

as an adult, i finally know that my parents love me and are supportive of me.

my husband is supportive and tries so hard to be understanding. i am so grateful for that.

we won an award here! thanks to mile 191, we received the lemonade award for showing great attitude and gratitude. she said "two glasses half full is definitely a place for peace, and some good thoughts to get you by. how about half full of lemonade! thanks!"

thank you, mile 191!

my diploma is almost here!

Good friends who are good friends despite the fact that I am not always a good friend.

Ahhh, I am thankful for days off. If only there were more of them.