psych!

best.show.ever.

too many times

It's so easy to be negative, isn't it? It's just not fair that it's not easier to be happy. How do some people make it look so easy? It's not. J does so many wonderful things for me and it's way too easy to ignore all of those the second he does something that upsets me. Why is it easy to forget the good and dwell on the bad? It takes a lot of conscious effort to be happy, I think, and sometimes I'm just not willing to put in that effort. But it's worth it right? I don't like crying, so why do I spend so much of my time with tears streaming down my face? I have so much to be happy about, but those few bad things get the spotlight. How many times have I said this, how many times have I decided that I am going to focus on the positive and then continued to focus on the negative? Too many times.

I am grateful that I have a job (if only for the next 3 months...). I'm scared for the future; it's nice to have a sound present.
I am so grateful for my family, for loving me even when I'm snippy.
I am grateful for music.
I am grateful for people with talent, for creating beautiful things that I can enjoy.
I am grateful that chocolate-dipped pretzels are so easy to make.

Life really is good.

I'm glad I'm not a total loner. I was worried that I would be. But the other interns are nice and let me eat lunch with them and ride the bus with them.
I'm even glad that I ride the bus for 3 hours a day. That gives me 3 hours to read every day.
I'm truly grateful for black nylons so that I can get away with shaving every other day.
I'm glad that J is willing to wake up in the morning and scrape the ice off my car and kiss me goodbye and then go back to sleep.
I'm glad it's raining, even though I won't be when I have to stand in it while waiting for the bus.
I'm really glad for alarm clocks or else I would always be late.

awards and other fun stuff

i am working very hard lately to see the half-full glass instead of the half-empty.

my baby is adorable. and i can't believe that he is almost a year old already...

as an adult, i finally know that my parents love me and are supportive of me.

my husband is supportive and tries so hard to be understanding. i am so grateful for that.

we won an award here! thanks to mile 191, we received the lemonade award for showing great attitude and gratitude. she said "two glasses half full is definitely a place for peace, and some good thoughts to get you by. how about half full of lemonade! thanks!"

thank you, mile 191!

my diploma is almost here!

Good friends who are good friends despite the fact that I am not always a good friend.

Ahhh, I am thankful for days off. If only there were more of them.

I survived.

memories

i relived happy times with my friends yesterday. how crazy, how long ago it seems, and yet like it was just yesterday...i sure miss them and everything we did together. (even though i don't miss junior high.)

i sold a drawing! yay!
today is friday, which is awesome.
tomorrow i get to see my friends! the four of us from jr high. ribbit, meow, and kitkat. (haha, can you believe i still remember that?)
my hubby freaking rocks and i love him.
i got to see my parents today, and my dad gave me a blessing.

a glimmer of hope

on my way to healing. a long road ahead of me but i am beginning to feel hope.

i have found a wonderful support group that is just amazing, has helped me so much.

i started a support group on modern molly mormon that i hope will be able to do the same good things for others.

i know my husband loves me even though i'm crazy.

internship

i am grateful for this internship, i am grateful for this internship, i am grateful for this internship, i am grateful for this internship, i am grateful for this internship, i am grateful for this internship, i am grateful for this internship, i am grateful for this internship, i am grateful for this internship, i am grateful for this internship, i am grateful for this internship, i am grateful for this internship.

if i keep saying it, it will be true.

gratitude

even when everything is crashing down around me, i have a husband who loves me.